ELEONORA and OREGON part 2

End of night 2:

I'm really tired... I guess its a combination of the trip to Oregon, not sleeping for the past couple of days, and the agony of sleeping in the van.

Luis gave me a screaming lesson today.

earlier I ate a bagel with cream cheese and some cookies. still hungry. (thanks to Ryan's dad)

DAY 3:

Morning. its 6 o'clock and I wake up to the sound of the nearby freeway. Its freezing and I'm the only one awake. I slept, or at least tried to, in the front passenger seat. I look behind me and see that Derek had grabbed my jacket so I'm the only one without a blanket. Its ok, I can't sleep anyways. I'm 2 days behind on my fucking editing. Shit... I think about Amber a lot. I miss her and she tells me she misses me also. When I speak to her on the phone, she reminds me of home and why I came out here.

I don't believe people when they say that they believe in me. On day 2 Luis told me that I'll be going somewhere. I don't know what to say about that.

Sleeping in the wasn't bad this night. These guys are my bros. I'm so thankful for having the opportunity and I feel like they really appreciate me helping them. I have to get to workin'.

I don't know how my eyes are doing.

Amber misses me so much that I feel bad for leaving. I miss her too.

END OF DAY 3:

Leaving the studio. Derek finished his drums today. 5 songs total.

These raviolis that Chris bought me for 88 cents at wal-mart just made me vomit. The guys

filmed it so i will be all over the blogs. I also bought him some cigarettes today he's 18 but he

doesn't have any ID.

I still don't know what to think about living with five other dudes. Everyone is a character

and everyone has their place. Everyone deals with band life in their own way.

Right now I'm listening to the playlist that I made for Amber. It makes me feel better.

I miss her so much.

When school starts I think I want to gat FCP certified. I think its a good idea cause I edit so much anyways.

Amber really makes me happy, I can't believe how awesome she is. She's so supportive of me. "me and her", I find that hard to believe still to this day. Beautiful. On the phone she told me that everyone she's told likes our story. I love our story. Straight out of a movie. Coincidence? Or do I just watch too many movies?

I can't wait for the day when I'm back home and we're laying in each other's arms. I read these entries to her. She'll look me in the eyes , tells me she loves me and kisses me. Oh how sweet that will be.

Everyone is sleeping. Derek is still outside on the phone. I sit in the dark wondering about home, the bright fluorescent street lamps in the Wal-mart parking lot give me enough light to continue writing.

I talked to my mom today. They went to their house in Elk Grove and brought Einstein with them. Apparently they weren't paying attention to him and he shitted on the bed. Crazy.

I'm so tired. I want to go to sleep but i can't. I want to but I'm physically not able to.I'm going to try right now.............